I am a woman whose heart yearns for realness. Realness for myself, but also realness for women around me, for I know with realness comes freedom! I long for greater confidence in Christ and hope to inspire those I come into contact with to feel the same. This is a blog about my journey to transform into something more beautiful, something more real, like a butterfly. These are ponderings from a willing heart.

Friday, June 1, 2012

When God sounds a lot like Bob Marley

The past few weeks have been full of a whole lot of down time.  Lynnlee contracted hand, foot, mouth disease and a severe diaper rash so we have pretty much been quarantined to the house.  Because of this forced slow down (see previous post for the irony, oh God you are quite the comic!) I have been able to spend some pretty serious time with the Lord.  No distractions, no time limits, just lots and LOTS of quiet time.  Just me and God.  Alone with my thoughts and my wandering heart.  AGAIN I found myself feeling lonely, distant, and frustrated about these emotions and their origins.  This time I decided to take my heart to God, in the absolute quietness.  I asked Him what I was supposed to do with these emotions. (I know scripture tells us to lead our hearts, but where do I lead it?!)  It was then that I began to feel a small stirring in my heart, a whisper, "I delight in you."  Okay God, I hear you, I know you love me, you made me and my emotions.  But what do I do right now? How do I feel better?  Where is this loneliness coming from?  Again I heard the small whisper "I delight in you."  So I started looking in the Bible where that phrase appeared, I found several, like lots and lots, so I dug in and began to read them in the order they appeared in scripture.  Suddenly I came across one that lit my heart up like New Years in New York City... Zephaniah 3:17 "The Lord your God is in your midst, He is mighty to save, He will take great delight in your,  He will quiet you with His love, He will rejoice over you with singing."  Seriously!!! Read that again! God was telling me He was singing to me?!? Be still my beating heart!! What a romantic notion! The creator of the universe, of music, of lyric, wants to "quiet me with His love" and sing to me! I bet God's voice is silky smooth like the old crooners.  I'm pretty sure Frank Sinatra ain't God nothing on the Lord!  What would He sing to me?  Would it be an old hymn or some Psalm in scripture? How would I know, I wanted to hear it! What lyrics and melody would He choose, would it be slow or fast?  
This morning I woke up with a song in my head that I can only say is unexpected and inexplicable... "Don't worry about a thing, cause every little thing is gonna be alright."  Really God??? Bob Marley?? The more I sang the more my heart began to soar, a weight lifted from my shoulders. My God, the lover and author of my soul knows me better than anyone else... He knows my worries, my heart, my fears, my insecurities, my weaknesses,  He was telling me that He still has it.  It's all under His control.  And He loves me enough to whisper it in a love song.  Oh what a God!!

2 comments:

  1. I love hearing what's going on in your life...even from such a distance! I love you Cuarter!!!

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    1. Allyson I love you!!! I wish we could see each other soon! Can we maybe make that happen! :)

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