I am a woman whose heart yearns for realness. Realness for myself, but also realness for women around me, for I know with realness comes freedom! I long for greater confidence in Christ and hope to inspire those I come into contact with to feel the same. This is a blog about my journey to transform into something more beautiful, something more real, like a butterfly. These are ponderings from a willing heart.

Tuesday, June 28, 2011

My very first blog entry... :)

Hello blog world! I honestly never thought I would hear myself say those words! To be completely honest, I'm not sure I have ever thought of myself as having anything important enough to say for me to create a blog.  I'm still not quite sure about having anything important to say about myself alone, but I know that God has given me a passion, a story, and a voice! I am oh so excited to see what He has for me, and for those who choose to follow this blog!


I'm not positive as to what direction I am going to take this project, but I can say that whatever words I have to share will come from a place that is honest and sincere. So in the spirit of honest sincerity here goes... :)


The past few months have been all about changes, transitions if you will.  I have gone from a Master's student, working woman, busy bee wife to a stay-at-home mommy, beginner chef, part-time student, full time homemaker. Can I just be honest and say that this transition was not nearly as "seamless" as I wanted to believe it would be.  I had gone from busy busy busy to being home all day, every day!  What a huge change that was!  When I began thinking back on what it was that was the hardest for me to adjust to, it wasn't what most thought it would be... it wasn't that I didn't enjoy being home all day, or that I was "cooped up" with a newborn.  It was the fact that without all of my busy-ness I wasn't sure who I was.  If I wasn't a full time student/working woman then where did my identity lie?  This is where the Lord ever so sweetly met me one afternoon during Lynnlee's nap time.  He firmly but gently began to peel back the layers upon layers of my insecurities and reveal the woman that He created me to be.  He was casting light in areas of my life hidden by the piles of things that had been shadowing who He so longed for me to become.  This is an ever present, ongoing event. He is continually showing me who I am in HIM, not according to the world's standards. 


So there you have it, thoughts from a lesser woman so to say.  This blog will be about the journey that God has begun in my heart, the journey to a deeper relationship with Him and those in my life, the journey to freedom from the world's standards of women, the journey of transformation.