Security and Dignity

     Security, that is a word full of many emotions. When you have it you feel safe, comfortable, worthy, and able to delve into uncertainty. When you don't, when insecurity prevails, it can make you look like a fool, it can create boundaries in relationships and rob you of opportunities that the Lord may have for you. I have been on both sides of this coin. My life and circumstances in my development created extreme insecurities in myself, I was insecure about my appearance always wanting to change something about myself, I was insecure about my abilities always wondering if I was good enough, I was insecure about my position in friendships always afraid I was going to lose my friends or that they would find someone else that was better than me, and oh so many more.  Some of my insecurity came from situations that were out of my control, life happenings that made me believe that I was “less than”, unworthy. Some of my insecurities came from choices I made on my own, situations I allowed myself to be exposed to, people I allowed to tell me who I was. Either way, I found myself in my early twenties not know who I was or what I was good for. I honestly felt that I was not special to God, that I had nothing to offer the Kingdom, I was useless, and worse than that I was forgotten. That is until the past year or so. Let me tell you, as succinctly as possible, what God has done for me. 

     He has revealed His power and might in my life by redeeming me of my dignity, my worthiness, and shown me how to have security in Him! I have done soul searching to find the triggers of my insecurities, identified how it has made me look, act, and think foolishly, and He is now freeing me from my downward spiral of uselessness of my own making. He cannot truly use me until I know who I am in Him, who HE says I am. His desire, His will is for me to have my dignity back, so I know when I ask for it He is more than willing, excited even, to give that to me. I can stop hanging my head in shame when I walk into a room full of women wondering if I measure up, if they can see through my facade, if they know I feel like a poser. I have the freedom, because I am clothed with strength and dignity, according to Proverbs 31:25, I am clothed, covered by Christ, I am worthy! I pray that if you feel unworthy, if you catch yourself measuring against other women around you, if you find yourself disliking someone because they look like they have it all together, stop the cycle, stop missing out on the things that God has for you and ask Him to tell you the truth about YOU in that moment. Let Him love you and clothe you in strength and dignity, let Him remove all shame, guilt, fear, and insecurity and replace it with confidence in Christ and freedom! This is truly His desire, and it really is possible.  You are worthy, you are not forgotten, He sees you, He knows you, let Him give your security and dignity back. 

Proverbs 31:25

English Standard Version (ESV)

25 Strength and dignity are her clothing,
   and she laughs at the time to come.