The
past couple months have been full of good things… blessings from the Lord. Travis’ new job is going really well, he loves
what he is doing and he is doing it so well!
I am ALMOST done with my Master’s degree (graduation is May 12th;
I can see the finish line!) Our 5 year
wedding anniversary is at the end of this month (we have been together for
almost nine years, if you don’t know our story). We are really digging in and serving at our
church and getting to know our church family more and more. Things are going pretty smoothly at the
moment. My tendency, my natural urge, is
to worry about what is coming in the future.
I find myself thinking “what is the next storm going to look like, what
will it consist of, what will it mean for me?” I am such a “worrier” and have
serious control issues. Throughout the
years I have been more comfortable in the midst of a storm than sailing the
smooth seas. At least when I’m in the
storm it’s not in the category of “the unknown”. This is crazy I know, I mean who in their
right mind would say such a thing? God
really spoke to me during my prayer time this morning and reminded me of a
scripture in Proverbs, a scripture I should be completely familiar with
considering I have just done not one but two studies on the subject
matter. (I am a slow learner and usually
have to learn things the hard way, not a characteristic I am particularly proud
of) The verse is Proverbs 31:25; “She is
clothed with strength and dignity, she can laugh at the days to come”. This verse doesn’t say “there will be nothing
bad in the days to come”, it doesn’t give us the illusion that the days to come
are going to be easy and storm free.
Instead, what this verse says is that because of the God-given strength
and dignity of this woman she is able to look at calamity in the face and LAUGH?!
God reminded me that He is the author and creator of my soul, He is the
writer of my story, and He alone knows what is impending in the future. All He asks of me is that I trust in Him;
love Him with all of my heart, soul, mind, and strength. When I am doing this well I truly can “laugh
at the days to come”, if my God is for me who or what could be against me? So this is what I am learning: I am learning to be content in the times of
blessing and calm, I am learning to “be still and know that He is God”, I am learning
to sail the seas in the moment of calm preparing for the next storm by trusting
in the Captain (I mean that only makes sense considering He created the seas),
I am learning that my strength and dignity comes not from myself but from God,
I am learning to “laugh at the days to come”.
A butterfly's life is about transformation... this is a collection of ponderings from a life that is being transformed by the grace of God. May my heart be like that of a butterfly, willing and ready to transform into something more beautiful.
I am a woman whose heart yearns for realness. Realness for myself, but also realness for women around me, for I know with realness comes freedom! I long for greater confidence in Christ and hope to inspire those I come into contact with to feel the same. This is a blog about my journey to transform into something more beautiful, something more real, like a butterfly. These are ponderings from a willing heart.
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